Dark Days

I feel like I am having a midlife crisis. I can't remember ever being so overwhelmed in all my life. I probably was back in my college days when I was working full time, student teaching, and taking classes, but hose days seem like a party compered to what I'm dealing with right now. So here's what I'm going through. My thesis for my masters program is due in T-minus 7 days! Nate and I are in escrow for our first house! I'm still dealing with infertility stuff and work is as stressful as ever. So many huge things going on right now. Any one of those things by themselves would be stressful, but when you put them all together, all at the same time, I really feel like I am losing it. I keep telling myself that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I will have my thesis turned in next Thursday so I only have to worry about that for another week. Escrow will close on Dec. 21 (fingers crossed-still waiting to hear about our loan) and then we will be homeowners, a dream we have had for a long time. I met with a fertiltiy specialist today and he has a plan for us an I am giving myself this month off of "trying." Work is just work, and I can't really do anything about that stress load, but I do have 2 weeks off in less than 3 weeks. At this point in time I feel like I am drowning, but I will be able to take a deep breath soon. I really want to be able to enjoy the holidays and not be such a grinch like I was last year.